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Fitness, Mental health and Future goals

For several years now I have had a constant battle with mental health, in my case this is depression, I first started becoming aware of it when I was about 15. Depression has affected my life in many ways, but it’s really affected my self-confidence more than anything, I have always been shy, ever since school and I find certain situations extremely uncomfortable.

Things have got a bit easier to deal with over the years, when I was in my school years I wouldn’t even go in a shop and ask for something, I always sent my best friend in instead, now I do that without much fuss, although I do prefer to use the self checkout when possible.

That being said there are some things that get me so worked up to the point where I can feel psychically sick. Recently I had to do a first aid course for my job, and there were certain parts of that which involved role play in front of a group of people, which is one of the hardest things for me, my hands were shaking constantly, I didn’t want to talk, I just wanted to get out of there, but I didn’t, I completed the course, and even better no one said I didn’t do it right.

Which brings me to my next point and that is, does anyone even notice that I feel this way? Is it all in my head? Why do I feel so insecure and obsolete against my peers? As far as I can tell I am no different, I believe there are many people out there that must feel the same way I do, I am not unique with this feeling. Telling myself that does provide some form of relief, not that I want other people to feel how I do, but that I am not alone in this.

Fitness has been a very difficult thing to get motivated for with this issue, I joined a gym but as you can imagine I found that very difficult with a lot of people around me, let alone just getting motivated to go to the gym on the bad days with my depression. So it wasn’t long before I stopped going, but I didn’t give up on fitness, I started doing it from home. I downloaded fitness apps, watched videos on YouTube and did research online, I must have searched just about every home and fitness topic I could think of, which is my main reason for wanting to share this information with others. I’m by no means perfect when it comes to exercise but I can help, advise and continue learning at the same time.

So what is my motivation? Well my life has significantly improved over the past few years, I have a wonderful partner who I am engaged to, and I have my lovely stepson and my beautiful daughter who bring me so much joy (and tiredness). So although things may be a struggle for me sometimes, having my family at home keeps me going, its taken me awhile to realize that but I need them just as much as they need me, maybe even more. They are my motivation for self-improvement.

I have got myself in better shape over the last year, I have lost a lot of weight, and I exercise a lot more, while continuing to do this my next goal is to quit smoking, Its proving to be very difficult, I have so far cut down from 20 a day to 7, which I feel a lot better for and I will keep pushing until I quit.

So that is a bit about my life and my struggles, we all have them, maybe you have your own battles, if you’d like to share them or let me know what you think of the post then please comment. Thank you for reading. 🙂



Author: James Burch

James is a health and fitness enthusiast who loves to try and help people. He writes from both knowledge and experience to give people guidance in all areas of health and fitness.

James Burch

James is a health and fitness enthusiast who loves to try and help people. He writes from both knowledge and experience to give people guidance in all areas of health and fitness.

This Post Has 4 Comments

  1. Hey I also suffer with depression but not in the same way mine is panic attacks and that makes me want t stay in and not face the world, I find it such a pain in the backside though knowing I have such a good family around me to support me show me love and especially for my kids I also find that exercise really helps me too, it takes your mind off the negative and helps you to start looking up to more positive things. This website has helped me to gain confidence in toning up and loosing a little weight, so I thank you for your inspiring words on your page keep up the good work ill be checking for regular updates

    1. Thank you for the kind words, and i am glad that you also found a way of coping with your depression 🙂

  2. Hello thechunk91.
    Thank you for expressing some more of your story. Depression is something that almost everybody experiences at some point in their lives. Your certainly not alone with your lack of confidence. I liked your point of saying that although you may feel differently at times, we are all the same. That’s so true. Our mind has this incredible power to make you feel like so much less. Once again, thank you for your words of honesty. It helps me greatly to see that there are other people that feel the same as I sometimes do.
    P.s all the best with quitting smoking 👍

    1. Hi Tyler, I’m really glad you took the time to read this and got something out of it. Depression is horrible but it can make it a lot easier to cope with if you can share what your going through. You clearly understand depression yourself and i hope you are finding ways to deal with it as well. 🙂

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